On October 6, 2011, I received some devastating news. Just 5 months after giving birth to my second son, doctors diagnosed me with Stage 2b Triple Negative Breast Cancer.
My first thought was of the family I had just started with my husband. How they would go on without me? To me, The C Word was a death sentence.
But the next month, just a few days after Thanksgiving, my husband was the one who passed away unexpectedly and I became a widow/single-mom/breast cancer patient in one fell swoop.
The depression I had suffered with for so many years had finally reached the darkest point. I had no idea what I was going to do or where I was going to go. This was my rock bottom.
I had to give up the life I had built and rebuilt after financial ruin during the recent Great Recession, uproot the kids and myself, and move two hours away so that I had the support I needed to get through the next few months of my life.
I had no clue where to start, but I knew I had to start over.
I was determined to not allow my life to end. I made a decision to not only survive but to thrive.
On the other side of my grief and breast cancer journey, I began to hear whispers that were accompanied by a tug on my heart.
That whisper led to me picking up one book, then another, then another. I eventually landed on Dark Side of the Light Chasers by Debbie Ford. Debbie may have downloaded that book from her inner guidance, but it was delivered directly to my heart.
My heart was finally cracked open enough for me to hear its cries and see its light. I enrolled in The Ford Institute’s Breakthrough Shadow Coaches Training, which taught me how and why I found myself as a single-mom/widower/breast cancer survivor.
I was able to see why every event that has occurred in my life has happened so that I may be the best me possible…and that anything is possible.
I started helping others see this for themselves too.
Next, I began training with The Empowerment Partnership, where I learned how to communicate with my unconscious mind using NLP (neurolinguistic programming) and Hypnotherapy. And I trained in Mental and Emotional Release® therapy, a technique that allows you to release the baggage of the past in a matter of minutes. Since then I’ve also begun training in the ancient Hawaiian system of healing and spiritual development using energy called Huna.
All this training has helped me move powerfully forward and step into the Fiercely Fresh Life I was meant to be living. And that’s what I am here to help others do too.
Making peace with my past and with the aspects of myself that I had tried to hide for so many years was key to me finally finding self-love, self-compassion, and self-acceptance — three concepts I never thought of before.
I’ve been able to reacquaint myself with aspects that I had denied for so long, while hiding behind my identity as a “good” honor roll student, university graduate, paramedic, wife, mother, and caretaker.
Learning to take care of myself first and walking this path of healing has opened up my life to create what I’ve wanted all along — love, compassion, strength, and light.
I’m no longer a victim of my circumstances and experiences.
I’m not a paramedic anymore, but I am still a care provider, just in a different capacity. I still help people, which is my passion and my purpose.
Now I get to help others rediscover who they truly are so they too can embrace their wholeness. I get to help them clear the bridge between where they are and where they want to be. I help them recognize limiting beliefs and excuses so they can take action in their lives. Together, we create their Fiercely Fresh Life and a bright future for us all.